(Un)Conformant

This year has sucked so bad. I’ve felt defeated in every aspect of my life and although I’ve managed to keep a smile on my face I’ve felt broken throughout a lot. Overall I’m still on my feet and still moving forward, I can’t just stay down. Life doesn’t stop until you die and I’m not dead yet.

There are times where you have to accept that you’re not the person that you thought you were. That you’ll fail with people that you love in life, and while it isn’t ok at first you’ll find a way to get through it and learn from your mistakes. These things happen. Just have to do better going forward.

I’m learning to be at peace with most things in my life and just tell myself to move on from the people and things that just didn’t work out. It’s life, no hard feelings and no ill will towards anything. No regrets most especially. Just a peace of mind that will help me live my life to the fullest.

Maybe I should’ve done more with my life. Feeling terribly unaccomplished compared to most of my friends and other acquaintances.

I’m listening to my therapist when it comes to writing out my thoughts and how I’m feeling going forward. I can’t continue to bottle all of this shit in.

You truly have to be selfish sometimes to get what you want when you are in a relationship. The other person might not like the idea but at the end of the day you have to look out for you and your best interests/happiness if that person wants to feel some type of way.